Another year older...
BitterIf i don't get out of this f-ing place soon i think I'm going to explode.
You know, what i really wanted for my birthday, was a break... I'm so sick of my family. All i have heard since i got back from CA was different variations of "you aren't ready to move away" "you cant make it out there" " you'll never succeed" blah, blah, blah... Pretty much my family doesn't believe in me, and has no faith that i can accomplish my dreams. They don't support my dreams, they just try to crush them.
It really sucks when you don't even have your own family to back you up. My mom always supported my brother, but when it came to me... i guess she just said screw it. I have always been compared to him. When he was in HS he always, ALWAYS got perfect grades. Was always good at everything. But when it came to me, i barely made it out of that place. I was awful at math, never got involved in any of the teams, the people there sucked and it literally made me sick to have to be there on a daily basis. I was so stressed that i had daily migraines. High school is a thing that i am so thankful to be done with, and even more thankful that i will never have to go back to it.
This life, is just not working anymore. now, before people start thinking of that as a suicidal type of statement, don't... because its not. Its me just putting more emphasis on the fact that it would be nice to, for once, have people surrounding me who support me and my dreams. I have a friend right now, here in Colorado, who i have come to know, and trust, and like very much in the past 2 months. In the past 5 years, he has been the only person (here) who i can actually rely on, confide in, and feel comfortable around. He has been there for my random rants, and he is the one telling me that my dreams aren't to big, and that i can make it. He is keeping me sane, and he will be the one person, and thing that i will miss terribly when it comes time for me to leave.
~To my friends in Cali, this has nothing at all to do with you guys. You guys get me through everything, i have your support, and it means the world to me. I love each and every one of you
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I really don't know your family so I can't tell but sometimes parents are just trying very hard to look out for you. Sure they might show it the wrong way but often they're just being a bit protective. They might be worried that you'll make a wrong decision and get hurt. Of course it's up to YOU to decide what you want to do with your life (and learn from eventual mistakes) but parents are parents. They don't seem to realize that their children have grown up and need to learn on their own. It might not be that they don't believe in you but rather that they worry. But still, it's up to you to take the big move and show them that you KNOW what you are doing. That's when they realize that you CAN do things on your own. =]
Best of luck with everything. Life can be a pain sometimes but there's always some great moments that makes it up for the bad times!
I hated school, too and I was glad when I was finished but when it comes to search and find a job it gets even harder and you notice that life is not easy.
Anyway, good luck
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I will break your neck and pour jelly all over your body and pray to the Gods of jelly to burn your soul in a jelly-like hell. Now get that jelly!!! - Dane Cook \\\"Nothing Fights\\\"-
One more person with this problem. i have the same with the lack of support from my family. Everytime I try to tell them my future plans, they go like: "No, just stay here close to us and work in a nice supermarket and live an average life". Well my school marks are, in comparison to theirs, better.
Sorry for talking about me, I'll get to the point now: even if your parents compare you with your brother or anyone else, just tell yourself that you are a unique person and don't have to follow everything your brother does or be as good as him. that makes you different and interesting. And believe in your dreams (I don't want to say it as cheesy as in "Believe" though
It still amazes me with just how many names are on this list.
Its ok, don't worry about it.
I know I'm unique, and my friends know that i am as well, and i will never stop believing in my dreams. You can go all SW i don't mind, lol. Its because of SeaWorld that i am following my dreams(more of because of someone at SW) but whatever, lol.
But thank you very much for this! It was very thoughtful
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Risk more than others think is safe,
Care more than others think is wise,
Dream more than others think is practical,
Expect more than others think is possible.
My family acted the same way a few months ago, But somehow I made them clear they don`t need to decide everything about me, I hope your family will also see this
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For we Only Keep what we Love..
and we only Love what we Understand..
And we only Understand what is taught to us..
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I hope, but i don't think so...
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Risk more than others think is safe,
Care more than others think is wise,
Dream more than others think is practical,
Expect more than others think is possible.
about a thing,
cause every little thing,
gonna be alright!"
Hang in there Em, and happy birthday to you!
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Risk more than others think is safe,
Care more than others think is wise,
Dream more than others think is practical,
Expect more than others think is possible.
Those people who don't support you are, what I call, dreamstealers. What's more unfortunate is that they are your family, I am sorry. I'm sure they are torn over knowing you want to move away, but you have to look out for yourself & your sanity. Always know that we support you, even if we're 1,000 miles away, belief, dreams, love and support have no limits.
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